donderdag 11 juli 2013

Do not put God or your loved ones to the test



Do not put God or your loved ones love to the test because they will ultimately fail if you are the one setting the standard. I know of a poor woman who was so afraid and insecure about herself that she could never really believe God loved her. She felt so unworthy and dirty because of all the things which were done to her and the things she did herself and the things she allowed to happen. Consequently she started doubting that her husband of many years really loved her.. Over the years hear fears and doubts gave rise to paranoia and she started to believe more and more that her husband's love for her wasn't real and that he was unfaithful to her. Partially this was fuelled by her unfaithfulness to him, but mostly because she believed that the woman her husband loved was her fake self and not who she truly was. Unfortunately she did not give her husband enough credit. He was very much aware of her darker side but was willing to live with it because he loved her dearly. Like a teenager stretching the love of her parents to the limit she stretched his love to the limit. She became increasingly less understanding and more and more accusative, uncouth, humiliating, aggressive, harsh, uncaring and so on. She became also more and more convinced her husband must be having an affair, how else can he be so happy and content while living with such an unworthy wife. She never understood that his happiness came from within his own heart and was inspired by his fait, his gentle and loving nature and his love for people including her. In the end the poor woman run away and divorced him as she assumed he did not truly love her and was going to abandon her one day.

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